Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Monday, April 12, 2010
I hate more than anything to fight with my kids! We had the worst morning ever! I need to take Cari's advice from her FB, count to 10 before I do something illegal!
It went something like this. My kids don't have shorts to wear to school. Everything from last year is way too small. I decided to take them to wm to get them a couple of things to get them by till we can go shopping. She is totally impossible to shop with. We butt heads when shopping!! Well, we finally agreed on a couple of things and this morning when it was time to get dressed, it didn't look right, or fit right (even though she tried it on at the store) or feel right. OMG! I know this is payback! But, then since I told the kids that they will be eating at school for the rest of the year, she had a meltdown. I simply don't have the money to keep this up. They have free lunches at school so that's what I decided to do. I had to tell Alli to get in the car this morning or she was grounded after school. I also said things I shouldn't have said. But how can I not say those things when their father tells them "the reason mommy kicked me out is because I don't make enough money for her" total bullshit. That's not the reason. The definition of insanity is doing the same things over and over again and expecting a different result. Ummm hello!!! I'm so tired of this shit, it's draining me and it's having a negative effect on my kids. They should not have to deal with adult problems. But I told them that we are short this month with $$$ and that we will have to do the best we can. Alli still not happy with this and doesn't understand. Their dad has also told them that they should have money because they get $$ off of my disability money every month. Yes they do, but I use that for bills, food and clothing and extracurricular activities and school expenses and Rx expenses that he doesn't pay 1/2 for and should. So therefor I don't have any extra money this month. I haven't worked because I'm sick and on treatment right now, so no extra $$ coming in there either. I did tell them that I should be getting a lot more money from their dad, but he only pays me a little a month and doesn't help me with the other stuff he should be helping me with. I know I shouldn't have said that, but he keeps lieing to them. He has no idea of what I've had to do to make ends meet. He has no idea how my household works. I want to give them the best and the most out of life, but I can't most of the time. I have signed them up for summer stuff, but am I going to get paid 1/2 for it, ummmm prolly NOT. He doesn't have moeny either. Why is this? He has a girlfriend who has a son and prolly spends that extra money on them, not to mention that he has sold his Buell, where did that money go to? He no longer is responsible for insurance on the kids, that's an extra $500 a month. I'm surprised they weren't wrapped in bubble wrap for clothing for school as they don't have insurance at this moment. What if one of them has an accident and has to go to the ER. Who do you think is going to pay for that? He doesn't have any money!!!
I'm so tired of being made out to be the one who is the bad guy. He needs to keep his stinkin mouth shut and stop talking about it. The only things my kids are worried about is money! I don't talk about him nor do I need to. I'm sorry the kids are going through this, but I made the best decision for my family. I'm not proud of the fact that I'm divorced. I'm also not ashamed or embarrassed either. I have no regrets. I love my kids dearly and wouldn't trade them for the world. I'm only sorry that I married so early on and was in love with the fact of getting married and having what everyone else had! I don't need that anymore! We were engaged 3 months after we met, I wish I would have waited.
Now that I'm dating Bobby for 5 months now, there have been speculations of us getting married. Bobby nor myself have discussed this. He knows that I don't have a plan on getting married for a long time. I'm not making the same mistake a second time. I don't want to get married and later having it end in divorce. I'm happy with where things are in my life. I'm happy with the decision I made last year in ending my marriage. I didn't think it would be a piece of cake or a walk in the !
I'm a damn good mother, but I don't need an award for it either!!! I know what I need to do to keep this house running and I know what my kids need and how to make them happy. Not everyday will be ice cream and sprinkles, but I do the best I can under any circumstances that may come our way.
The final court date for us (hopefully) is tomorrow on Tuesday the 13th at 1:30 and then hopefully there will be more consistency in this divorce!!
It went something like this. My kids don't have shorts to wear to school. Everything from last year is way too small. I decided to take them to wm to get them a couple of things to get them by till we can go shopping. She is totally impossible to shop with. We butt heads when shopping!! Well, we finally agreed on a couple of things and this morning when it was time to get dressed, it didn't look right, or fit right (even though she tried it on at the store) or feel right. OMG! I know this is payback! But, then since I told the kids that they will be eating at school for the rest of the year, she had a meltdown. I simply don't have the money to keep this up. They have free lunches at school so that's what I decided to do. I had to tell Alli to get in the car this morning or she was grounded after school. I also said things I shouldn't have said. But how can I not say those things when their father tells them "the reason mommy kicked me out is because I don't make enough money for her" total bullshit. That's not the reason. The definition of insanity is doing the same things over and over again and expecting a different result. Ummm hello!!! I'm so tired of this shit, it's draining me and it's having a negative effect on my kids. They should not have to deal with adult problems. But I told them that we are short this month with $$$ and that we will have to do the best we can. Alli still not happy with this and doesn't understand. Their dad has also told them that they should have money because they get $$ off of my disability money every month. Yes they do, but I use that for bills, food and clothing and extracurricular activities and school expenses and Rx expenses that he doesn't pay 1/2 for and should. So therefor I don't have any extra money this month. I haven't worked because I'm sick and on treatment right now, so no extra $$ coming in there either. I did tell them that I should be getting a lot more money from their dad, but he only pays me a little a month and doesn't help me with the other stuff he should be helping me with. I know I shouldn't have said that, but he keeps lieing to them. He has no idea of what I've had to do to make ends meet. He has no idea how my household works. I want to give them the best and the most out of life, but I can't most of the time. I have signed them up for summer stuff, but am I going to get paid 1/2 for it, ummmm prolly NOT. He doesn't have moeny either. Why is this? He has a girlfriend who has a son and prolly spends that extra money on them, not to mention that he has sold his Buell, where did that money go to? He no longer is responsible for insurance on the kids, that's an extra $500 a month. I'm surprised they weren't wrapped in bubble wrap for clothing for school as they don't have insurance at this moment. What if one of them has an accident and has to go to the ER. Who do you think is going to pay for that? He doesn't have any money!!!
I'm so tired of being made out to be the one who is the bad guy. He needs to keep his stinkin mouth shut and stop talking about it. The only things my kids are worried about is money! I don't talk about him nor do I need to. I'm sorry the kids are going through this, but I made the best decision for my family. I'm not proud of the fact that I'm divorced. I'm also not ashamed or embarrassed either. I have no regrets. I love my kids dearly and wouldn't trade them for the world. I'm only sorry that I married so early on and was in love with the fact of getting married and having what everyone else had! I don't need that anymore! We were engaged 3 months after we met, I wish I would have waited.
Now that I'm dating Bobby for 5 months now, there have been speculations of us getting married. Bobby nor myself have discussed this. He knows that I don't have a plan on getting married for a long time. I'm not making the same mistake a second time. I don't want to get married and later having it end in divorce. I'm happy with where things are in my life. I'm happy with the decision I made last year in ending my marriage. I didn't think it would be a piece of cake or a walk in the !
I'm a damn good mother, but I don't need an award for it either!!! I know what I need to do to keep this house running and I know what my kids need and how to make them happy. Not everyday will be ice cream and sprinkles, but I do the best I can under any circumstances that may come our way.
The final court date for us (hopefully) is tomorrow on Tuesday the 13th at 1:30 and then hopefully there will be more consistency in this divorce!!
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