Moment of Weakness

Yesterday I had a moment of weakness! I'm entitled, I think. I'm supposed to be this strong person with a disease and everyone sees the strong Bree, the warrior, the undefeated. Even the strong have weaknesses. I just broke down yesterday, which is not easy for me to do. I was just sad and angry and feeling helpless because of cf. I have been in so much pain, and it was getting to me. I was crying out to Jesus, begging Him to take away this pain, take away my sadness, take away my infection, to give me the strength that I was missing, to breathe without pain, to yawn without saying ouch loudly every time, to finally sleep laying down and to be comfortable laying down. I want to be back to the Bree everyone knows, smiling, always helpful, always faithful, always positive.

I woke up this morning with less pain and I could breathe more easily. There is no one like our God! He is the strength to the weak. He is the faith to the faithless. God heard my cries yesterday, because He is not done with me yet!!! He allows sufferring so that we come to Him, to need Him more.

Thank you God for rescueing me from my pain, my saddness and my anger! You watch over me, in my darkest hour. You watch over me, to help me see the way before me. You are always faithful, you've never leave me. Never once have you forsaken me. You have held me together, when I have fallen to pieces.

This disease is not easy to have at times. This is the first time I have had pain with an infection before. It was very unbearable at times. Pain meds hardly touched it, but took a little of the edge off.

Thank you to all of you who have been faithful in prayer for my healing. I pray that God will bless you and your families. Thank you for your prayers and thank you for being in my life to help me to go through this so I am not alone.

Love & Peace,
Bree