Friday, August 28, 2009

The longest days of my life!

To bring you up to speed; Brian and I are getting a divorce. It is getting messy and out of whack. We went to court on Thursday because we cannot agree on how the kids should have visitation. All I know is that Brian has always said that I am a good mother, but now he is trying to convince everyone that I'm crazy and he tried to get complete custody of the kids temporarily. He didn't win that argument. I did, however, agree to go to counseling for my "anger" issue. He said that I'm undermining the kids. Nothing has changed in our household except for the fact that daddy does not live there. That in itself is gonna disrupt the kids. The reason I'm angry is that the kids, whom by the way have always known that a mommy and a daddy go to bed together at the end of the day, not a daddy and his girlfriend. How sick is that??!! She has caused problems for me and she needs to back off, but it's also brian's responsibility to have her back off. She doesn't belong with my kids! Beside that I petitioned that she or her kids not be present at the time of visitation. I won that one!!! The kids will reside with me. But the temporary order as of right now will be that he will have the kids every other weekend, from Friday night to Monday morning when he will take them to school. I'm not happy with this, because I think that the kids should be home on Sunday night, and I don't think that this arrangement will last long. But this is only temporary, so I'm not too worried.
So here's my thought. He was ready to take the kids out of their normal residence but then I asked our mediator if he would like to spend time with the kids any time this weekend but his response was that he "was busy". Then I get a text this morning saying that he would be available to take the kids tonight. Ummmmm, he knows that Alli has a slumber party tonight and I plan on spending one on one time with Mason, so my answer is a big fat NO. Our children are not for his convenience when his plans fall apart!!! These kids are going through hell, because he is making them empty promises again. He is buying their love. Our kids are not for him to go around with his girlfriend playing house. They are not to be used for him to look like he's a good father in public. I have done everything in my power for them since the day they were brought into this cruel world. Now look at what they have to look forward to. At least they can trust me to come through on everything I tell them. Sometimes plans fall apart and I'm understanding of that, but don't promise or say something that you cannot follow through with.

I will fight with every bit of strength I have for my babies and their rights. I am a good mother and always have been. I'm not a perfect mother and I too have made mistakes. This fight is not going to take me down. I will not back down. I will keep at it till the end!

I am so blessed to have such a wonderful family and friends who keep me standing straight and when I bend or break, they are my pillars who will help me stand straight back up. I love you all very much!!! Thank you for being there for me and the kids!!!

Love to all,
Bree

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